I want to feel the rise and fall of your chest as your heart beats in step with mine, and i want to breathe you in, and taste the cigarettes on your tongue. I can hear you now, your voice rings loud and clear  in my head "i love you, it's you i want, only you, always" I feel the quiver in your voice "hurry, go" and as i turn my back, my legs lock in place, i want to reach out, grab you, hold you close to me and tell you "no, this is where i belong, with you, only you, always" but i can't.
I know the time will come when that goodbye is our last, when i will feel you everyday next to me, the sunshine running over you, over us.
but for now, i have more time than i have luck. so please, please let this not be luck.